I can’t explain why it hurts. 

It just does. 

There’s this constant urge to cry. 

But it’s stuck. 

It doesn’t want to come out. 

I can physically feel the pain. 

I just want it to stop.

Stop the memories from rushing in.

I hate you.

I hate myself for loving you this much.

for giving you this much power over me.

When I think about it I don’t really know why I still love you 

After everything that happened still, nothing changed.

I thought your mistake would eradicate all the love I have for you but instead, it forced me to wake up the love even I didn’t know existed for you. 

The love my subconscious desperately hid from everyone even to myself. 

Cause I know if I admit it I wouldn’t be able to let you go.

You really broke me. 

I don’t fuckin know how to fix this.

Every piece of me is damaged. 

This pain is consuming me. 

Never trust people who could ignore you for hours.